He Leadeth Me

Hello all! Hope you're doing well. . . It's almost Friday!!! WOOHOO! Only 8 weeks left of the semester after this!! :) I really don't have a ton to say tonight. I'm so exhausted, I can't really think. I've got two tests tomorrow, but I'm studied out. . . . I'm sure you know how that goes. :)

Chapel was soooo amazing today. I needed the message so badly! Rejoice in the Lord was going through my head the whole time. Then when the pianist played He Leadeth Me, it got stuck in my head for the rest of the day! Songs are powerful things. They help me focus. Whenever I'm walking somewhere, if I look like I'm talking to myself, I'm probably singing a song in my head. :) Although I do talk "out loud" to God when I am walking somewhere. For some reason, it helps me get my thoughts verbalized. I promise I'm not going crazy! I'm just talking to my "Daddy"! :)

I guess I'll share something God nailed between my eyes today, so I wouldn't keep missing it. I don't really like myself, like who I am. I am very self-conscious and very much a people pleaser when it comes to some things. So I typically try to hide the "real me" (whatever that means) from people until I get to know them really well. I realized several things today as I was walking back to the dorm today. 1) God made me who I am for a reason, and He doesn't make mistakes or trash. So hiding who I am is basically a smack in God's face. 2) I should focus on the good things God has given me, instead of all the negatives that I have created. and 3) God doesn't want ME to be seen so much as His son. I suppose He made me this way to show Christ to the best of my ability in a way only I can. I have to stop seeing only the negative, and focus on the positive things that God has blessed me with. Whether they are few, or just small things, He didn't have to give me ANYTHING, but He did. :)

I guess that's it. I'm sleepy. And so I'm going to bed!! :) Have a good night!
Rebekah